Saturday 19 March, 2011Why I Don't Like Cunnilingus

Looks like I've puzzled a few people - well kinda sorta lots of people - when they read in my profile my aversion to having Oral sex performed on me.  So, with no further ado - here are the details.

LOOOOOOONG time ago before meeting the hubby I had a boyfriend who wanted to do that to me, so I said ok.  This was looooooooong time before I got a clue about such things.  So away he went busily exploring my pussy.  Yes, at first I was kinda nervous since previous boyfriends never did that to me.  Ok so it starts to feel good when he uses his fingers - BUT - he then shoved 2 fingers up in my pussy.  And guess what? HE HIT MY CERVIX - OOOMMMFFFGGGG!!   HURT SOOOOOO BAD!!  I ended curled up on my side,and in pain.  Yes - I saw stars too!  Needless to say that date&relationship ended pretty quickly.  So after him for awhile I wouldn't even consider having that done to me again.

Then another time (with another boyfriend)  he pretty much did the same thing but he hit my Gspot roughly.  Again, bad bad pain, and VERY VERY upset about it

So since then my pussy is a "Toys and or Fingers Only and VERY gentle!!" area.
Even the thought about it or talking about all of this makes my anxiety go WWWWAAAAAYYYYY up 

Trust me - pretty much everyone says "Oh well if you were with me it would be different. I'd be super gentle & careful". Ok that's very nice to say, but you wouldn't be the one freaking out & scared in my head now would you?  I think POSSIBLY in a bondage situation -where i am bound & gagged - and SLOWLY - and I mean SLOWLY and carressed & touched gently & reassured A-L-O-T I think I would be able to overcome my aversion to it.   

Well - that's all of it...so now you know